MKMMA Week 14 – Ding Ding Ding Ding Ding!!!
My blogs are out of order. I’ve still got weeks 12 & 13 in draft status; but, I feel such an urgency to get this week posted. It’s my thoughts and feelings right this moment, right after the call.
Our subconscious mind is going to return what we’ve planned. Or planted. Yes; I know, this is what our MKMMA guides have been telling us for 3 months.
Realizing that I have a choice. Well, that is something that I’ve ben told for 64 years!
I’ve always known that I’ve had a choice. In fact, it’s exactly why I made the wrong choices!
I knew the right choices would put me in a position to succeed. Apparently, I’m afraid to succeed because that makes other people, who are no longer in my life, feel inadequate. I was told I was being “selfish.” I’m a white. I just want peace, baby.
I hate to dwell on the past, but my past is sometimes a key to the future. Every once in a while something happens that illuminates the past and explains why I behave in a certain way. I had one of those realizations today while on the call.
My past behavior was molded by the people who felt insignificant around me, so they trained me to make them be the master in the relationship.
That’s really sick!!!
I made the choices I made to satisfy the people I wanted to satisfy.
Now, those people are no longer in my life. Some of them were actually removed by choice…..as in divorce.
So, why have I still been making the choices that would satisfy THEM?
I must think and behave for ME. Not other people.
There is no difference to the subby. The subby does not think I’m selfish. The subby just gives to me what I give to it.
It’s selfish of me to try and satisfy others instead of myself.
If this was a color, it would be red. Finally, I see a color. a red circle.
And now, as I write this, OMG!
I’m listening to the masterminding at the end of the call and another MasterKeyer has had the same exact experience!!!