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MKMMA Week 14 – Ding Ding Ding Ding Ding!!!

My blogs are out of order. I’ve still got weeks 12 & 13 in draft status; but, I feel such an urgency to get this week posted. It’s my thoughts and feelings right this moment, right after the call.

Our subconscious mind is going to return what we’ve planned. Or planted. Yes; I know, this is what our MKMMA guides have been telling us for 3 months.

Realizing that I have a choice. Well, that is something that I’ve ben told for 64 years!

I’ve always known that I’ve had a choice. In fact, it’s exactly why I made the wrong choices!

Oy vey!!!!

I knew the right choices would put me in a position to succeed. Apparently, I’m afraid to succeed because that makes other people, who are no longer in my life, feel inadequate. I was told I was being “selfish.” I’m a white. I just want peace, baby.

I hate to dwell on the past, but my past is sometimes a key to the future. Every once in a while something happens that illuminates the past and explains why I behave in a certain way. I had one of those realizations today while on the call.

My past behavior was molded by the people who felt insignificant around me, so they trained me to make them be the master in the relationship.

That’s really sick!!!

I made the choices I made to satisfy the people I wanted to satisfy.

Now, those people are no longer in my life. Some of them were actually removed by choice…..as in divorce.

So, why have I still been making the choices that would satisfy THEM?

I must think and behave for ME. Not other people.

There is no difference to the subby. The subby does not think I’m selfish. The subby just gives to me what I give to it.

It’s selfish of me to try and satisfy others instead of myself.

If this was a color, it would be red. Finally, I see a color. a red circle.

And now, as I write this, OMG!

I’m listening to the masterminding at the end of the call and another MasterKeyer has had the same exact experience!!!

Holy Shit!

 

 

 

 

 

 

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Donna Wasielewski - January 3, 2016

Some AWESOME realizations there! I, too, think it is important to understand some of why we do the things we do because it helps as we focus on making changes! So excited for you that you can start living for you now, and the world! 🙂

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remarkablehealth - January 4, 2016

Thank you Donna. I can hear your growth too, just through your comments. Happy New Year!

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rosstmasterkey - January 4, 2016

I bet your dipping your bucket now ! Me too! I think there are many of us going through similar realizations. Sounds like you too are growing some new brain cells that are helping you figure stuff out and move forward. Yahoo! I bet we will all be getting younger again for awhile. Happy new year From San Diego!

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    remarkablehealth - January 4, 2016

    New brain cells, new body cells, you name it. Happy New Year from a soon-to-be-soggy Orange, CA. Looking forward to learning how to use my new umbrella!

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thompsonscott20 - January 5, 2016

You got this!

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randysmasterkey - January 5, 2016

Well I’m going to add to your “holy shit” experience. When I was reading this blog, a huge smile implanted itself on my face as I read my own old blue print ( right down to the divorcing part). All my life I have NEEDED to please and be liked by everyone. Thank God for MKMMA. Time to start living the lives we were meant to live. Thanks for sharing.

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    remarkablehealth - January 13, 2016

    Exactly! Something very weird is that I actually like pleasing everyone. It’s just that when I do that then I’m the one who is left out because it’s my job to please myself. Yikes! I don’t want to miss out!

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The Bruce - January 8, 2016

I am also a White. Peace at all costs. An example for me is playing golf for money. When I get ahead of my opponent I sometimes back off because I don’t want them to feel bad by loosing. Talk about “head trash.”

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masterkeygerhard - January 10, 2016

It starts with me! The more I love myself, the more I can love others. The better I take care of me, the better I can take care of others. The more I respect myself, the more I can respect others…….
The more you nourish yourself, the more fruit you bear for others to eat!

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remarkablehealth - January 13, 2016

LOL That’s actually funny. We need to “get over it.”

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Saskia - January 13, 2016

Holy Cow! 😉 BAM! Realization + acknowledgement, that’s a gift to all of us! So thank you, Cherylin, thank you for sharing!

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MKMMAwendyht - January 14, 2016

Don’t you just love it?!!! Mahalo for your honesty and for simply and spontaneously writing from your heart! You’re an inspiration!!! Yours in Gratitude, Light & Love wendyht

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robertmasterkey - January 16, 2016

Awesome..You got a lot going on. Your going ot make it Thanks for sharing.

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remarkablehealth - January 24, 2016

🙂

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