MKMMA Week 16 – Life is Growth, and Growth is Change
I’ve had to clear the way for a new life. It’s very much like cleaning out a closet.
I’ve had to toss out many things that were no longer serving a purpose in my life. Things that were in the way have also had to go.
More importantly, I’ve had to decide what things need to stay.
Like Mark keeps sayin’, and he is totally right; there is a point that is the point of no return. Even with subby fighting, I’ve reached a certain point and cannot go back. Life as I used to know it just doesn’t exist any more.
It’s very hard to explain this journey to someone who is not travelling it with me. I know that you, my fellow MKMMAers, know exactly what I mean. Every step is something new. We are earning this!
Haanel says, “Premature wealth is but the forerunner of humiliation and disaster, because we cannot permanently retain anything which we do not merit or which we have not earned.”
I knew I had to change, and I knew I had to work for it. My problem is, in the beginning of this MKMMA journey I had no focus on things that needed to change vs. things that needed no change. Without focus of where I wanted to go and what I wanted to accomplish, I was trying to change things unique to me, that helped define who I am.
I was trying to change these things because others wanted me to change them. What good was that going to do me??????
(Insert Homer Simpson noise here)
I could give you a million examples of things I was trying to change that didn’t need change, but I won’t. I’ll be kind and keep it simple: Getting up early.
My entire life I have had a problem with getting up early.
Heck. Who am I fooling. Regardless of the time I get up, I don’t even wake up until about 10 or 11. Doesn’t matter when I get up. I have always had a huge problem with being “not a morning person” and I’ve fought it my entire life and wanted to change it.
I can’t tell you how many times I’ve entertained the thought of moving to Hawaii, not because of the island beauty or my love of snorkeling. I covet their time zone. That is my reason.
My life is full of morning people, and I so admire them. They have their morning coffee, and morning hikes, and morning classes, and morning travel times, and morning fishing times, and morning job report times, and morning meetings, and morning yoga classes and morning marathon start times and even morning turkey stuffing times.
When I have a list of morning things in my life, what goes through my head is this: “Why even bother going to bed?”
My mom tells me my internal clock was a constant battle when I was young. She fought hard for me so I could attend afternoon kindergarten. If only other required-by-society things could be that flexible.
Living by the compass and not the clock has been one of the greatest blessings and largest steps forward for me toward chipping away all the cement thrown on me by the requirements of society.
I want to toss aside things that hinder my ability to realize my DMP, not wither my individuality. This journey is helping.
“Everything that lives has periods of birth, growth, fruitage, and decline.” ~ Haanel